You see, a huge chunk of my life was spent being a Catholic School Girl, mainly my adolescent life, the most volatile period for a person to be involved in religion. The nuns in my school were strict to the point of being almost totalitarian. Their ways and means were mostly preventive, so we weren't given the capacity to decide for ourselves. I couldn't blame them since most of my schoolmates were in this rebellion, "let's fuck the nuns up!" phase of their lives, which I think wasn't beneficial for both parties.
This was the period of my life where I started having problems with religion. Well, at least the you have to do this or you'll burn in hell, you heathen part of it. One of the nuns' ways of disciplining us girls was to immerse us in rigid prayer - Angelus, rosaries, Gospel readings - all in one day. I am okay with all those if I were a cloistered nun, but damn, I was a teenager with raging hormones! Prayers on top of a demanding academic life was just too much. How can I pass a test I haven't studied for if I was busy praying to pass the test I haven't studied for?
I also partially blamed those nuns for my being unsocialized and
Eventually, I reconciled with my faith and realized that I shouldn't blame the deities for what their bat shit insane army is doing *cough*Anti-RH Bill movement*cough*
So to summarize:
- I DO believe in God and faeries.
- I somewhat have a problem with organized religion. I attend mass when I can and want to, but I don't like being forced to do it.
- I DO pray.
- I AM Catholic.